Thursday, December 3, 2009


I got called out of the jail to be talked with in court. Danforth asks me about when I dismissed Abigail as our servant because of her discretions with my husband, although that’s not what I told Danforth. I told Danforth that my husband John Proctor was not a lecher not knowing that the truth had already been told and that John told the officials of the court that I was a truthful person. I screamed “Oh, god!” realizing what I had done and I began to feel like Abigail was getting exactly what she wanted and that was to ruin my family. I was pregnant with John's fourth child which put a dent on my execution date because they do not believe in killing the innocent baby. So I just sat in jail with all of the accused people that were getting killed day after day after day. The morning came for the day that my husband was scheduled to be put to death, and Mr. Hale continued to try to convince me to save my husband. I got to talk to John one last time before he was killed and I will never forget this conversation. He asked me about the baby that i was carrying and I told him it grows, and then about the boys and I told him that I had not seen them but they were ok, I asked if he had been tortured and he said yes, they come for my life now. I also tell him how Giles Corey has died, by being pressed “More, weight” being his last words. John tells me his thoughts of confessing, as I say that I cannot judge him. John continues to bash his-self saying that he isn’t a good man but then finally I say “John, it come to naught that I should forgive you, if you’ll forgive yourself. It is not my soul, John, it is yours. Only be sure of this, for I know it now: Whatever you will do, it is a good man does it. I have read my heart this three month, John. I have sins of my own to count. It needs a cold wife to prompt lechery.”

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